Not enough (Take it or leave it)

I learned early how to stand in line
Keep my head down, swallow every sign
They wanted quiet, they wanted control
Said I asked too much, had too much soul
Not obedient, not polite
Too loud, too sharp, too ready to fight

Was never enough

Every place I go
Another list of rules
Every time I try
I still fail their proof
They keep changing the target
I keep paying the price
They make me regret
Always playing nice

Sat in rooms that smelled like fear
Memorized dreams I didn’t care to hear
Grades on paper, boxes to tick
They called me lazy, called me dumb chick
Had no focus, no discipline
Too distracted by the world that I’m in

Was never enough

Every place I go
Another list of rules
Every time I try
I still fail their proof
They keep changing the target
I keep paying the price
They make me regret
Always playing nice

Smiling faces, side-eye laughs
Measured by trends and Instagram math
Too honest, not cool
Too much truth, playing the fool
They wanted filters, I gave them scars
Guess that’s where the distance starts

Still never enough

Every role I play
Still not the right fit
Every expectation
Another place I quit
They call it selfish
I call it mine
You want to change me
But I am just fine

Yet never enough 

Take it or leave it
I know who I am
I don’t need permission
To give a damn
You call it failure
I call it truth
Take it or leave it
I choose me over you

Take it or leave it
Take it or leave it
Take it or leave it

​

Not Your Girl

You had that look
like you knew it all
leather jacket
gym hall wall

Nice bike, fast smile
and talking smart 
dreams ran wild
seventeen, I fell too hard

You said my name
like it was yours
said “that’s my girl”
you felt so sure

I'm not your girl
I'm not your prize
I'm not your story
Go fuck your lies!

I stood next to you
I made you shine
you needed a face
to fall in line

You wanted parties
wanted nights
wanted a body
warm and quiet

You had your boys
your screen, your field
your fucking games
your fake ideals

I'm not your girl
I'm not your prize
I'm not your story
Go fuck your lies!

I waited around
you never stayed
I spoke too loud
you looked away

You touched my skin
but missed my head
wanted me easy
in your bed

I’m not your girl
don’t need this shit
Go fuck yourself
Cause this is it!

Take your bike
and take your crew
take your noise
I’m done with you!

I'm not your girl
I'm not your prize
I'm not your story
Go fuck your lies!

I’m not your girl

​

Don’t

You look at me
like I’m a case
like I don’t fit
your little space

You ask what’s wrong
you write it down
labeling my highs
and every frown

Sometimes I cry
because I'm sad
sometimes I scream
'cause I feel bad. 

Don’t try to heal me
I don’t need your meds
I wanna feel me
as real as it gets

You call it chaos
I call it life
you want it quiet
but I want strife

I feel too much
you feel too little
you close your heart
and call it civil

I’m not broken
I’m not sick
I’m just human
deal with it

Don’t try to heal me
I don’t need your meds
I wanna feel me
as real as it gets

You call me insane
for feeling pain
for loving hard
for saying names

If this is madness
then look at you
inhuman calm
nothing is true

I’m sane enough
to feel it all
you’re scared enough
to build a wall

Don’t try to heal me
I don’t need your meds
I wanna feel me
as real as it gets

Don’t
Don’t

​

Wanted

Today I was bored
just Bumbling around
you know, order your match
like a lost and found

yeah (yeah yeah)

You've got everything
a gift from the sky
but can you be my rain
when my soul feels dry?

Scrolling past the noise and neon lies,
your picture hits, don't need to look twice,
tall frame, sharp lines, magazine clean,
six-seven perfect, you know what I mean.

do you know (do you know)

You've got everything
a gift from the sky
but can you be my rain
when my soul feels dry?

You own a house, space to have fun,
a kingsize bed — and I hope a kingsize gun,
I don't know your touch, I don't know your hands,
just the version of you that my head invents.

I don't need a prince
with a look and a throne
don't need a world
you promise but then postpone
I'll take a white-haired battlemage
scarred but true
fighting my demons
holding me through

Fast car promise, headlights on,
no-border vibes, just hit and run,
your mind is sharp, MA degree,
long night-talks, just you and me.

You've got everything
you look heaven-sent
but are you my rain
or just well-designed intent?

Come here, Eve!

(ahhh Eve)

​

Braindead

I’m scrolling through the world right now
Searching for the next big “Wow”.
Found a dance — yeah, nice, okay.
No wait, I’ve seen it yesterday.
Same move, same face, same stare,
No sweat, no soul, just copy-flair.
This one’s not even human anymore
We use AI to kill the bore

Braindead that's what we are
Braindead we've gone too far
Toilet heads and Labubus
will suck our brains, that's what we choose

Now who is this? Don’t know her name.
Why am I inside her private frame?
Your bathroom light, your open drawer,
Your bed, your mirror, your kitchen floor.
I don’t wanna get ready with you,
Don’t wanna know what you eat or chew,
Don’t wanna know your daily loop
And certainly not whatever you poop.

Braindead that's what we are
Braindead we've gone too far
Toilet heads and Labubus
will suck our brains, that's what we choose

A warzone flickers on my phone,
Smoke and fire, flesh and bone.
No wait — it’s just a game you play.
Looks real enough to make me sway.
I don’t care how many kills per minute,
You count them fast, but you don’t feel it.
If this is fun, then something’s wrong.
If this is play, we’ve played too long.

Braindead that's what we are
Braindead we've gone too far
Toilet heads and Labubus
will suck our brains, that's what we choose

I scroll faster, losing ground,
Frames explode, no time, no sound.
Fainting kids, rooftops and dares,
Broken necks for likes and shares.
Detergent tabs and burnt-out eyes,
Comment sections full of smiles.
No pause, no sense, no space to breathe,
Just feed me more of this disease.

Braindead that's what we are
Braindead we've gone too far
Toilet heads and Labubus
will suck our brains, that's what we choose

Fuck Labubu and Toilet Head
I take those playing kittens back

Braindead!!! 

​

Ugly

You tell me what to buy, what to eat,
what to fix, what to fear, what to be.
Perfect skin, perfect life, perfect pain,
all wrapped up in a sponsored frame.
You call it advice, you call it care,
but I see price tags in your stare.
You warn me of fake ones just like you,
say they’re clueless, say they’re new.
But where’s your license, where’s your proof?
Just a ring light, just a truth
that bends as far as money goes.
Funny how expertise by clicking grows.

You sell yourself for money
Smile wide and all professional
You sell yourself for money
but your are empty inside your shell.
You think your 're smart and so astute
I think you're just a prostitute.

You talk about power, about being free,
about loving your body, autonomy.
Strong women, independence, loud and proud —
while you sell your firm ass to the crowd.
Empowerment in every line,
but the algorithm owns your spine.
Is this choice or just a deal
you made so often it feels real?
You tell us all to “be ourselves”,
then copy faces off the shelves.
Same lips, same waist, same pose,
same story everybody knows.
I don’t hate you, I just ask:
who you hide behind the mask?

You sell yourself for money
You call it brand, you call it art
You sell yourself for money
Piece by piece and part by part
You think you're hot, you think you're cute,
I think you're just a prostitute.

You preach clean living, clean and pure,
sell supplements you can’t ensure.
Detox teas and workout plans,
bodies as business, as fear demands.
You tell me I’m broken, not enough,
then sell the cure — that’s clever stuff.
Is this helping, is this care,
or just another trap you wear?
And then the shops, a holy name,
lipstick, hoodies, overpriced fame.
Everyday things, reborn as gold,
sold by girls who never sold
anything but who they are.
Hey Kylie, keep your wonderbra! 

You sell yourself for money
No street, no night, no shame
You sell yourself for money
Different rules, same game
You think you wear a business suit
I think you're just a prostitute

I don’t need your service, don’t need your shine
as a guide through a life that is mine.
I’m not angry, I’m just tired and worried too,
not about me but more about you.
Do you feel alone when the screen goes black,
when likes and shares don’t love you back?

​

Hate

We watch it live while cities turn to dust 
Bodies torn apart for flags and lies 
Burned-out fields, black smoke, a righteous thrust 
Mothers screaming under silent skies 
Children learn the sound of bombs by heart
Graves fill up where playgrounds used to be
Tell me what belief justifies this art 
Gods, oil, pride — which one pulled the trigger, honestly?

You hate so loud, from far away
It’s not your blood, it’s just replay
Tell me — was it worth the price you’ll never pay?

It starts with looks, with whispers on the street 
With jokes that cut but never leave a scar you see
Different skin, wrong words, don’t quite fit the beat
So we label, sort, decide who gets to be 
You push them out, then call them mean and cold
Surprised they clench their fists and bite back hard 
You made the wound, then fear what you behold
A circle spinning faster in a shrinking yard 

You hate so close, it feels like truth
You spit it first, then blame the bruise
And blame the others, blame what they choose

And then there’s me, alone with all my flaws 
Every crack I try so hard to hide 
I point my anger outward, make new laws
As long as they are wrong, I’m right 
I tear them down so I don’t have to see 
The parts of me I never learned to face
I hate the world so I can finally be free
From hating myself — just for a while, just in this space 

You hate so deep, you don’t even see
You aim it out, but it lives in thee
Maybe all this hate is what we’re afraid to be.

​

Selfdestruction

We drill the ground until it screams for air
Turn forests into smoke and call it growth 
Oceans choke on everything we wear
Plastic crowns the empire we chose. 
We burn the future for the price in sight 
Sell the sky in pieces, breath by breath 
Another war to keep the engines fed and bright 
Another flag to justify the death.

Selfdestruction
No enemy in sight
No invasion we can fight
Just selfdestruction

We pave the world so nothing ever stands 
In the way of speed, convenience, demand 
One-click-comfort, blood on distant hands 
Out of sight means easy to withstand 
We know the cost, we’ve seen it all before 
Charts, reports, the numbers never lie 
But knowing doesn’t stop us wanting more 
We nod, look down, and calmly pass it by 

Selfdestruction
Fully aware of costs so deep 
Fully awake and yet asleep
Just selfdestruction

We feed our bodies poison, day by day 
Call it living and convenience 
Sit still, scroll fast and slowly rot away 
Trading touch and sleep for lenience 
We numb the ache with sugar, pills, and screens 
Too tired to feel, too wired to stop 
If this is health, then tell me what it means 
When breathing feels like waiting for the drop 

Selfdestruction
This is no fucking mystery 
No random error of history 
Just selfdestruction

There is no hand around our throat
No monster at the door
We did all this to ourselves
And still we want some more.

​

The Land of the Free

The constitution says that you’re free
To chase whatever you want to be,
Freedom of speech, a sacred right
As long as you're on the admin's side,
It promises equality
But that’s not what we get to see,
Power buys forgiveness fast 
Justice is what comes dead last.

Towers of promises build higher to the sky
But look real close, they’re paper and lies

This is the land of the free
And the home of the brave,
Where voting means democracy
But tomorrow is unsafe,
Is this the land of the free
And the home of the brave?

Inflation rising, wages stay the same
You pay the price, they play the game
Markets booming, bankers laugh at you
While you pay taxes, they don't do,
Universities teach what they're told
Truth for hire, rewritten in gold,
Your dreams are stuck between 9 to 5 
You're free to work or end your life.

They speak of justice with their empty cheers
Happiness hides behind debt and fears

This is the land of the free
And the home of the brave,
Where they praise meritocracy
Which means to be a slave,
Is this the land of the free
And the home of the brave?

The National Guard gives you the chill 
No crime to fight, just the king's will,
You shout “democracy!” yet feel the weight
Of boots, of shields, of curfew late,
Friends and neighbours, taken, shot 
We're all united under God, 
Are you next? Am I? Who can say?
They call it protection, I call it decay

Elon whispers in your feed 
What to be and what you need,
Live your life your own free way
As long as you won't go astray,
They watch your patterns, watch your dreams
Freedom is not what it seems.

This is the land of the free
And the home of the brave,
We trust in God, technology
And in a man who is a knave,
Is this the land of the free
And the home of the brave?

Liars

Everybody’s lying
I swear it's true,
Everybody's lying
Except for you. 

Politicians sell their programs
Like they truly had a clue, 
Corporations wash their names
Saying now it's up to you, 
The market calls it freedom
If you drown, you did not try, 
Commercials teach you smiling
Nothing money cannot buy. 

They lie
With straight faces and clean hands
They lie
Call it order, call it plans
They lie
And if you question what they say
You’re ungrateful anyway

Parents say they know what’s right
Teachers say you learn for life, 
Partners say “I’m fine” each night
While they sharpening their knife, 
Promises straight from the heart 
Comfort dressed as care, 
Everyone’s just trying hard
To be everywhere. 

We lie
When the truth gets hard to hold
We lie
When we’re scared of growing old
We lie
Say it’s love, say it’s fate
Just to keep the dark away

I say I’m good, I say I’m trying
I say I’ll change, just not tonight, 
I call it patience, call it timing
Anything to feel alright, 
I tell myself I’m different
Smarter than the rest, 
But every mirror I avoid
Knows me the best. 

I lie
Just to sleep at night
I lie
Just to feel alright
I lie
Like I didn't have a choice
Like I didn’t hear my voice

Life never promised heaven
Never said it would be fair, 
No golden roads, no second chances
No answered prayers anywhere, 
Life doesn’t fake it
Life doesn’t pretend
Either you make it
Or you will end.

Everyone’s a liar
Like it or not, 
Everyone's a liar 
Only life is not.

It’s You

Trash on the sidewalks, bottles in the rain
Another traffic jam, everyone's insane,
Ads in your face, noise in your head
Too much of everything, nothing is said,
You hate the crowds, the dirt, the smell
The way this city feels like a living hell,
You blame the system, the machinery
Then you oil it with your smooth hypocrisy

 How could this happen?
How is this true?
Hey stupid, listen —
It is you.

They make it easy: click and buy
Google, Facebook, now AI,
You hate the billionaires, the suits, the kings
But you fed their rise with smaller things,
Every follow, every tap and every vote
You build the throne right from remote,
You say their power is a shame 
Then swipe again and play their game. 

How could this happen?
How is this true?
The answer is  —
It’s you.

No smoke without a fire
No crown without a crowd,
They do need you to feed them
It's time to start to doubt.

How could this happen?
How is this true?
Hey stupid, listen —
It is you.

So point your finger, curse the view
Shout at the world like you always do
But if you really want the truth —
It’s you.

​

Sorry, not sorry

Yeah, I know it hurts to look at your skin
To feel too heavy for the life you’re in,
I know the silence when no one calls back
The interviews, rejections, the cracks,
Being ghosted, cheated, left unread
Lying awake with the words you never said,
Feeling stuck, feeling small, feeling lost
Feeling every step a too high cost.

I get it, really — I’ve been there too
But staying down won’t rescue you

Sorry if this sounds cold to you
Sorry if the truth cuts through,
But I won’t lie just to make you stay
Sorry, not sorry,
Get up and make your day!

You say it’s your body, your job, your luck
Your parents, the system, the world that sucks,
Too tired to move, too scared to try
Too smart to fail, too hurt to fight,
You hate the mirror, the bed, the day
Still doing nothing, hoping for delay,
Waiting for justice, a sign, a call
While time keeps winning, taking it all.

I get it, really — I’ve been there too
But staying down won’t rescue you

Sorry if I don’t applaud your pain
Sorry if I won’t help you complain,
I won’t cheer for a life on halt
Sorry, not sorry,
But this is your fault!

No one’s coming to give a dime
No magic hand, no perfect time,
If you want more, then cross the line
Or stop pretending, stop to whine!

Sorry if this sounds cold to you
Sorry if the truth cuts through,
But I won’t lie just to make you stay
Sorry, not sorry,
Get up and make your day!

You can wait for the call
You can fight, you can fall
You can change it all
Or not at all

Take it or leave it
Take it or leave it
Take it or leave it